Posted on October 26, 2008 - by Knox

Getting Myself Back Up!

These few days have been very hectic for me, but i know somewhere there is still hope for me. The sweetest thing was that i actually have people who cares and love for me all these while. And all these years, i didn’t realize this because i thought my love was only for her. When i was down, my friends and family comforted me, and the best part is, i know that there are sincere and will never leave me.

Actually i just woke up 3 hours ago and i feel kinda different. I came to realize that i can live without her and i am not like her. I have always told her all these while to be dependent and never rely on love or anyone else. To be honest, i am that kind of person and i will continue to be that way. Actually, i have lots of things to say to her, not love stuffs, but more on life but i guess she won’t need it. Her new boyfriend can take care of her and hopefully teach her about life. The reason i wanted to talk to her boyfriend last night was to tell him that i won’t even try to take her from him. I also wanna know how she was doing and stuffs. But it was a huge mistake. Her boyfriend freaked out when he talked to me and showed his anger in front of the one he loved. Dear boyfriend of hers, please remind yourself that this is only the beginning, and if you’re really serious with her, you surely must be prepared for the worst situations. I’m not threatening or planning to do anything but this is life. Love is about trust, you don’t need to check her handphone because i think it’s absolute crap. The most saddest part is when you don’t let her contact me, i really can keep my words but i think you’re controlling her too much. To me, if i love someone, i let her be free and things she want and i never stop her, maybe it was a mistake that made her think that i don’t love her. Maybe what you’re doing is right? Well all i can say is if she likes it, then you’re a good guy. And i hope you don’t promise her stuffs you can’t keep. I heard that you guys are going to Perth? Well you better do that and take her with you, coz if you don’t, you’re just making empty promises to her.

Now about me, i’ve been healing. All i need is time, been having fun with my friends on weekends. Just came back from late supper with ein. Life is picking up it’s way slowly. Now i am free to do anything i like. Call whoever i want, do what i like anytime. This is me, this is my new life